Wednesday, December 3, 2008


It is a funny thing to see the things that you have experienced come back around to show up in your life again. In August of 2006 I set off on an adventure to see what else there was in the world. I had the chance to see many different aspects of the world, I got to travel with my dog Samantha to many parts of the USA that I had not had the opportunity to see before. I experienced many different and diverse people and places that have opened my eyes to a reality that I did not know existed.

Recently I have returned to the exact business with the exact people I was working with before I left. It has been a lot of fun to get to know these people again and it has been intriguing to get back into their lives with an entirely different appreciation for who I am and who they are.

In my previous life I never concerned myself with anything that was outside of what I wanted. Either what I wanted to do or what I wanted to accomplish or what made me complete. As I look at the world now I can see that it is not just about me and the things that I want and I wonder if it is too late to be able to pick up the pieces of this life and move on. I turned 35 last week and for the first time a birthday has cast a shadow on my life that I cannot shake. I joke sometimes about my 20's being a blur, and how the first half of my 30's have been the same. I guess that some mortality has started to set in. My health is not great. I am overweight, I smoke, I drink and I eat like shit. I run hard hours on the weekends, I stay up too late at night and then I crash and recover for days at a time. I think it was a Jimmy Buffet song that goes " I can't run at this pace very long".

I apologize if my thoughts are rambling, I started this blog on a whim and I haven't thought through where I am headed with it. It seems a little macro right now, I will work on slowing it down and getting complete thoughts out there.